Love of my life. You are the most valuable in my life besides the children.
You are my life! Can you still remember how we met? My doctor urged me on a vacation.
There was someone on my floor who was also very lonely and had an immense desire for children.
I knew that she could not give me the feeling I longed for, but at least save my life by not being alone anymore.
But I was not enough, was rejected. As a good friend, however, I was good. A few days later,
I saw you for the first time. In the smoking area. You sat shyly on a bench diagonally opposite and smiled.
I knew from the first moment that you could give me the feeling that I need like air to breathe. It was love at first sight.
The previous injuries finally ended my life.
I did not want and did not need another injury this time for final,
play it safe to put an end to it. I could not dream that a woman like you could be interested in me.
We made friends, spent a lot of time together,
but I did not want to get hurt again and kept up the illusion of falling in love with the other one.
Although my heart hung on you from the first glance. I did not need more injury.
My decision was clear: the day before the end of the holiday the train did not drive,
because I would throw myself in front of it. And then ...
Before the weekend before the discharge, you stood in the smoking area with tears in my eyes in front of me.
"I fell in love with you, but you love the other!" That phrase saved my life.
We drove over to you over the weekend and I revealed my feelings to you without ever realizing how it really was (I still do not know why).
You think until today that you were second choice for me.
You were the first! The first choice for me. The first, which I loved and which also returned this love.
The greatest luck on earth. And since then I have been able to feel the "feeling" every day.
Finally, I could breathe permanently. Life.
I had a life for the first time. And in addition, my wishes,
dreams and hopes for my own family were fulfilled. You said, "You do not need anyone anymore.
I'm your family! "And I was only too happy to get involved with that. We were very special.
Have given us strength (but also cost strength). Only the demons of our past stood in our way.
We went through a lot and had some bad times.
However, the beautiful and happy moments always rejuvenated them.
Hugely alone helps to drive away any evil thoughts.
I never told you how important you are to me. How valuable.
How much I appreciate you and what you do for me.
And I'm so sorry.
Can you remember our first holiday at the sea?
The bike tour in late April? Bathing with cap!
Or the short trip to Kiel when I surprised you with Denmark?
You were crying with happiness.
Or our vacation in the old school? The beginning of our first great miracle ...
The episode: the birth of Marianne *. Our greatest luck.
Many beautiful moments with Marianne *. This happiness is crowned by the birth of Joshua *. Our family was complete.
But everyday life caught up with us. The stress with the community has also made everything more difficult.
How could I just let you move farther and farther away from me, make it so easy for you ?! You, the most valuable in my life.
I was a fool and an egoist and never want to be. If only you take me back, at any cost.
Let me be home, take care of our home. Let me be with our children, take care of our children. Let me love you,
take care of our love and show you how much love we have.
We have changed so much through us. Mostly for the better.
That too has been especially between us.
How do you imagine a future coexistence? Under what circumstances will we find a way back to us?
Do not just let us try each other again.
Let's do it right this time.
Let's go through life together, because this time I will do it right and to your satisfaction.
Your luck is the most important thing to me. I want you and I want to have the kids around me. Every day, as a real family.
You have not given us up yet, otherwise you would not have tried to get a vacation spot in our pension.
Let's do this vacation. No matter where, main thing as a family.
I know that you still love me, because love does not pass. At most, they are closed.
Believe me one last time and let me help you find the key to your heart.
Let us go on together to love the children.
The time of miracles.
Let our miracle happen.
Let's be a family again.
Better than before.
In eternal love
No matter how you decide,
I wish you all the luck of the earth and would like to be part of this happiness.
On the cover I wrote:
Every word comes from my pen, my head, my heart.